Battle Of the Bulge

Has a whole year past? Is this summer really just around the corner?
These thoughts consume my head as I stand in this years bathing suit, thinking about the failure of last years resolution. I look to the mirror and I am convinced I see remnants of a former me, however it seems as though the stranger in the mirror has swallowed that girl. Standing now more depressed then expected, I can't help but wonder why the struggle? In a world of terrorists and epidemics why is our biggest fear "getting fat"?. Sure I may have eaten the old Janine, but am I less happy? Or is this drive for another reason? Has the past three weeks of dieting, running and pilates been a struggle for something else? Is it to find love?
doubtfully as the thought of love scares me more then obesity.
I do not know what it is that drives me, but for now I like it and I will continue to like it until the former maybe even a healthier me resurfaces!!
SO STAY TUNED.........

Say I love you

Its 6pm and your husband is at home preparing dinner. You just got a raise and this weekend your moving into a bigger house with the proverbial white picket fence. As you pull up to the stadium you wonder if her lessons may have finished a little early today. You check the mirror a days work still apparent on your face but masked with a smile as the baby begins to kick. The cold meets your face as you enter. The instructor approaches you.."mrs.Jane....there Been an accident".......
I know I know I promised only humor and good times but there was an accident this past weekend and I just cant seem to shake it. A little girl died. Her parents said good-bye not knowing that this was their last minute with their little girl, that the precious person that not 10 years before they held in their hands and cried at the little miracle they just created is now gone. Who could have known that the thing she loved most was the one thing that took her out of this world.
At the young age of 25 I have had my share of tragic endings. An uncle more like a second father, a cousin more like a friend, and a friend more like family have all past to what we hope for our own sanity a better place. At any minute of any hour of any week someone can be taken away from you whether you are prepared for it or not. So please hug your best friend...Tell that special someone that you love them and appreciate the people that you do not because somebody does........ I Love everyone of you!!!

Scary tale

A house once filled with laughter has now been replaced by darkness. Friends have long since slipped past roaming thoughts and are now awaiting the day to come. I rest my head down and take comfort in the false sunlight sneaking under my door. That is when I hear it. Faint at first and then louder and louder. A scream? I sit up and realize I have stopped breathing. I breathe out and listen again my ears now filled with the rhythm of my pounding heart. My fear stricken hand reaches for the door knob and the false sunlight now pours into my room. I approach her room and open the door, now paralyzed with fear as I have come face to face with the intruder of my dreams. "WHAT DID I COME IN HERE FOR?"
sleep Jenny You came to sleep.